Life is what happens when you are to busy standing still.

Sometimes I wonder why I am still around. My mind thinks about this stuff a lot. Do you know? Do you understand? I really dont know. Valentines day is coming up. And again I am alone. But Im ok with it. Yeah it sucks every now and then but it happens.


One day I will have my day.


One day.

I want my old life back.. But with the new me.. I just dont know.

And it all just fell apart.

wow

I feel like I am in middle school again. I stopped looking for a girl. and then last night started talking to this girl just gain friends. And I must say there is a connection. I feel a live. I havent smiled this long in a long time. Its crazy. I dont know where to start. I am not going to rush into anything. I am just going to let whatever happen happen. It caught me off guard and I am loving every moment of it.

score one for chris

Dreams

Really what are dreams? They are things you have in your mind of things you want to reach. But why do people get off on leading you around just to smash your dreams. I may not be the strongest person around. But really why must you sit there and crush me. I fell in love over 10 years ago. You where suppose to be my life. You lied to me. You tossed me aside. With all that is going on you decided to drop the news on me now. I really just want to go to sleep and not wake up. Is it so much to ask for to be happy. I think this is the last of me.. I am going to admit myself. I cant do this anymore. I am on my last string. My last hope.

When

I just hope one day that I will get my chance. Im tired of hurting.. Im tired of life. Sometimes I wish I could stop thinking like I do. I know one day it will be ok. I will get my shot. For now I lay alone in bed with my thoughts.

-Burning Away-

I love to watch you burn
Set you on fire as the world turns
Disrupt the evening with smoke and embers
Dancing in the ashes
Watching the children cry
Playing in the acid rain
Burning their flesh
Melting away into the ground
The rain washes away their faces
Giving them less hope as the world burns
It turns into another day
Forgiving all thats left behind
Disrupt the future
Forget the past
I wanna watch you burn
I wanna watch
..... you die