How to pretend to be smart in order to get laid or to get nowhere in life.

                In this day and age dating is a common thing. Well hell even way back in the before time dating was a normal thing. Jonny goes and picks up Susie for the box social. Jonny will have Susie home by 9:30 and walk her to her house with his letterman’s jacket on her shoulders. This is rare now a days. For the most part these days guys will pick up their dates and take them out to eat or a movie. But when they bring the girl home its much later and depending of if he “got some” or not depends on if he will call her back. Most likely she will not hear from him again. This is the new social standard. This is trash.

                In this note/blog whatever I am going to touch on things that will probably piss off a lot of people. If you are easily offended then I would probably stop reading this now. I am going to touch on things that piss me off about guys and girls this day and age. So here it goes.

                The other day I posted a status update on facebook basically blasting dating and putting some blame on the female raise. Saying I am to amazing to go out and search for a girl. That I am just going to sit back and make them work and come to me. It met with a lot of love and praises. Saying Chris you are a great guy and you deserve the best. And then there was that one person who basically put me down. I have since then deleted the post and that person will not be said in this blog. Why you may ask since above I said I am probably going to piss some people off? Well it’s because in all reality I respect the person. Just had some rough days with said person in the before time.

                Dating isn’t an easy thing for anyone. I call dating the “sniffing butt stage.” We basically act like dogs. Sniffing another butt to get to know that person. We spend most of our lives getting to know people and then alienating other people to make room for the new. Now with me I keep those I respect closer. I do have a lot of friends but then again I only keep a few close to me. But this blog/note isn’t about friends. It’s about dating and relationships.

                I suck at relationships but I have learned a lot. I won’t settle for crap when I know I can do better. But most guys are douche bags and go for just a pretty face. They will put the girl down and tell her she isn’t pretty just to keep her at bay. He may hit her and bruise her pretty little face but does she leave… NO. Why would anyone want to stay in a relationship like that? “Oh I love him. He is my everything.” That’s fucking bullshit. If he loved you then he wouldn’t put a hand on you. Guys like that should be shot. And I wish I could pull the fucking trigger on all those guys who think its ok to hit or belittle a female.

                But sometimes it’s not just the guys fault. The girl is at fault about 50% of the time. She will chose the guy with the looks over what is in his brain. I know looks matter. Yeah your parents tell you and feed you those lies over the years but the truth of it all it matters. People will pick looks over what is best for them every time. I see all these guys who act “gangster” but in reality they are fucking tools. But they have all these hot girls all over them and name their kids Pancake or Qwezler. The girl will pick these tools over someone who would actually do them good.

                I am not saying I am God’s gift to women or anything, but I am me and I have a lot going on. I am going to pretend to know things in order to go places in life. So I will pretend I am smart to get laid. If a guy can pretend to be “gangster” then I can pretend to be something I am not. Some will argue and say I am smart but I am me. I am my own person with my own style and what not. Girls seem to like who I am and how I treat them. But now if I can only find a girl in the other 50%. That’s the kind of girl I want. But will I ever find that girl probably now. But then again I will probably settle for a girl in the top 50% from the other spectrum. But this blog isn’t about me looking for some sex or anything.

                I can careless about sex. Sex is a something special shared between two people. Yeah I have had meaningless sex before. Do I regret it? Well of course I do. But when sex was used as an emotional crutch it loses its meaning. That’s about all I am going to say about sex because that could be a new post on its own.
So what have we learned in this post. Let me break it down a little more for you.

• Guys will beat a girl and the girl will stay
• Girls will chose a guy that is no good for them
• Dating isn’t for anyone
• Respect is the key
• Sex isn’t everything
• Be yourself and don’t pretend

                Well that’s it for now boys and girls. I will be interested and reading the hate I will probably get from this post. So with all this said I will leave you with these lyrics to a song. So take this for what it is. Words for someone to enjoy.
-Chris
“Baby doll I recognize you’re a hideous thing in side. If there was ever a lucky kind it’s you you you.” – Tv On The Radio “Wolf Like You”

Let The Right One In (Old PSA)

This blogs name is taken from the movie Let The Right One In. But this isnt about the movie. This blog will probably be everywhere. This may end up being a PSA. But who knows. I know the next one after this one will be another song break down. Well once I figure out the track I want to to. I have a few ideals but nothing set in stone. But here it goes.


Where do I start? I think this will be a PSA. A different kind of PSA that I have done in the past.. This will be basically a big Fuck Off. So in the end you may pretty well be pissed off. But If you cant have and open mind and let this all sink in then you have no business reading my blogs.

Hate. Thats such a strong word. People now a days tossed that word around. They have tossed it around so much that it has become a fashion statement per say. I dont use the word hate very often. There are a few that I hate with every ounce of my body. Im not going to get into it in this blog. That was something that I have dealt with over the years and learned not to let it get to me.

But kids these days hate anything and everything. Its becoming part of the click. A new thing to do. OOO I hate Jenny because her hair is blonder than mine.. Or I hate Josh because he broke up with Lisa. Hate has become the new black. It seems that once one person starts to hate then others will follow. Kinda like a domino effect. One person hates then it falls from there. Sometimes that kind of hate blows up and gets out of control. We all know about Hitlers reign in Germany. Well that all started with one guys hate. And bam almost a whole nation killed off because of hate.

Silly kids these days will start drama just to have that hate.. Its like they wake up and say "Today is a good day. I think Im going to start hating Julie because I dont have anyone else to hate." Its things like this that will see a kid bring a gun to school. Do we really need another school shooting. But hate is nothing new. Hate has been around since the beginning of time. Adam hated Eve and Eve hated Adam. Maybe not but you get the ideal.

Now this next part will piss a few people off and really I dont care. I believe that the bible was created for "Crowed Control". Think about it a book telling the life of someone in hopes you lead a honest hate free life. But this little book and all the books like it has cause some of the hateful fights. People have died to keep these words a live. Thats all they are just words written from a text no one really understands. Words getting miss interpreted over the years. Things get lost and people take them the wrong way.

Hate is define as:
1. To have a great aversion to, with a strong desire that evil should befall the person toward whom the feeling is directed; to dislike intensely; to detest; as, to hate one's enemies; to hate hypocrisy.

Whosoever hateth his brother is a murderer. --1 John iii. 15.

2. To be very unwilling; followed by an infinitive, or a substantive clause with that; as, to hate to get into debt; to hate that anything should be wasted.

I hate that he should linger here. --Tennyson.

3. (Script.) To love less, relatively. --Luke xiv. 26.


Even the definition to hate cant describe exactly what it means. There is so more than just that. So why has this became a fad now? I blam it on the parents and there parents. I was brought up to hate. Yes I was taught to hate some races and taught all the hateful words to say. But I learned over the years that its not worth it. I dont hate and I never did except those few people that I actually do. Thats another blog for another time. So if you're still reading this and not pissed then you arent a hateful person. But if you are a little mad then read these words and live your hateful life toward them.

1: Dont hate, we dont have very long on this planet as it is.
2: Smile and get the fuck over it.
3: Dont start drama just because you want to get attention.
4: Give hugs. Hugs can be the greatest thing in the world if you let it be.
5: Just turn around: If someone starts hating you then just turn around. No need to add wood to the fire.


Im not saying that I know everything, but this is just a piece of my mind. Some random thoughts and what not. If you dont like them then dont read these. These are meant for education, entertainment, and to piss people off. For now this is it.. Enjoy.


-Chris-

Agony Is Truth (rant)

“But time taught me how to see every second as heaven even though they're perfectly disguised as hell.” – “Smile” Eyedea And Abilities 

                If music has taught me anything it’s you can describe anything with just the littlest of words. You don’t have to say much to get a point across. So why did I start this off with a quote from a song. Well to prove a point. That no matter what you see if life it will always be disguised as something else. So where do I start with this blog, and how will it end up? I have an idea but if it will end up where I hope I have no idea. So here we go.

                Looking at today you see a lot of things going on. From the common person living their life the way they was told to. Or the way that they saw their own parents do. From beating down a small child or hitting a fragile women.  Death is all around us but yet we do nothing about it. We don’t live for the moment. We don’t take life and enjoy every second even though we know its hell.

                The state if humanity is no more. It is man vs. trash. Brains have been replaced by meth. Drugs are a huge part of civilization. We need just the littlest pill to get through the day. Pop it and make it. Some take that to heart. They can’t even get up from the bed without a pain killer. But is it their fault or the man who started it all? Do we blame the monster or the man who created him?

                Today I went to the pool. For those who personally know me knows that I can’t stand to be around people for very long. It’s not the fact that I hate people, I do, but the fact that I can’t stand to see people in the shape they are. To look around and see people having fun is a good thing but seeing the shape they are in is another. A man that stricken me as “white trash” was a guy covered in joker tattoos. Not a mixture of different types of jokers, but a take on the joker rolling papers. I’m not saying that tattoos are trash because I have a lot of them myself. But the choice he picked to cover his body in the same thing. I know people should have a theme but don’t “white trash” it. Art is the best form of expression no matter what kind of art it is. But there is a line to be drawn somewhere.

                There is so much bad out there but why do I see the bad in the people who can be good? I can tell so much about a person just with their smile. It says a lot. I mean when someone smiles they are ether happy or hiding something. The truth lies behind it. Some years ago a friend of mine came to me and asked me what I thought about their guy. Well I have never met this man, but she knew what I can do. So she sent me a photo, and in this photo I saw a man hiding something. He had a smile that held lies, and evil. So some time later after I have told her what I thought she came back to me and told me I was right. That she should have heed my warnings.

                So where does this leave humanity? I think we are going backwards.  We are regressing to a time where we have to fight for everything. Down to the last slice of boar that we caught in the forest. But what do we do when there is no more boars, or nothing in the forest to hunt? I think we will end up killing off more than just the dreams of the young. Killing each and every person’s hopes, and dreams.  

                We are slowly dying as each days passes. So in the end we will end up on the back burner. Trying to climb our way to the top of nothing. So what am I trying to tell you all? I guess that’s up to you to figure out. For now I will leave you with this.  

“Agony is truth its our connection to the living I accept it as perfection and keep on existing in the now.” – “Smile” Eyedea And Abilities

My Last Will And Testament

To whom it may concern,
This is my last will and testament. I have lived a very full life. Was always surrounded by friends and family, but just like life I have seen them come and go. They were pulled from the very being of my existence. As I sit here and type this I can’t help but look at how my life leads me here. How I became who I am today. Seeing everyone come and go I can feel the tears as they fall. No matter how hard I hold back I can’t seem to hold on to anything anymore. As the light gets brighter I welcome it with open arms. There will be many who is upset with me writing this but I can’t help but put my last thoughts out on paper for those who care to read. This isn’t the end but it’s a beginning. A beginning of what you may ask? The beginning of a new life. For with the taking of my life will come new life. Something bigger and better then I could have ever been. So as I slide against these walls I start to lose my grip. This is it. This is the end. Good by my friends. Good by my family.

                                                                                                Forever yours,
                                                                                                      The booger that lives in your nose


                                                           (Inspiration comes in many forms. This is just one of them.)

- Tuesday -

Tuesday seems far away

Like tomorrows yesterday

Today seems only forgotten

Blasting toward a future unknown

Will hopes up high

Drowning in the sea of inspiration

But coming up for air

Days at a time

With the minutes blurring together

Years seems like months

Weeks become hours

Toward the end

We strive for fear

Disillusions

Down for the count

But yet not out

Tuesday seems far away

But the past is unclear

Text Message To A Friend

-Friend-
Things will be alright. Well they have to right? I mean for someone to be in a funk for as long as they can remember one day it WILL have to be ok. I am slowly losing that little piece of me that's holding onto reality. I've been blowing off life without an outlook toward the future. I try and close my eyes and take in deep breaths but these days have seen a lot of scars. Mental not physical. My grip on reality isn't being able to hold much longer. I know it will be ok. It has to. I just have to vent a little. I'm not feeling myself. I'm slowly trying to change myself mentally and psychically. I just don't know how to take life any more. I have became the person I hate the most. The person I would rather kill then save. This is life I know and know it has its ups and downs. Some more than other. But I have been this person that has been helping with people a lot and now I am
 finally looking out to try and find my own help. But I hate people and can't stand the company of others. So what do I do. I block myself out and hope one day ill have this sun that shines on my day. I am sorry this message is so long but I guess I had a lot to say. Love you

- Born From The Ashes Of A Failed Vision -

It’s scary in thought

That the human race is fucked

From start to finish

This whole place is done

From the moment we are born

To the minutes leading up to death

We was giving a goal

But unbeknownst to us

We are fucked

Born to die

Dying to be born

 So we created this moment

The one from our dreams

But from our dreams we raised a nightmare

Rotting moments

Dying hopes

So we close our eyes

We prey the nightmare ends

All in hopes

That one moment we will be able to live

To breath

So sing our song

But from here to there

Far and away

We dream a subtle dream

Born to die

Dying to be born

Save us all