If It Has Tits or Wheels…..
It Will Give You Issues
The title of the blog is taken from something my
boss has said. It has become more relevant than I ever would imagine. I’ve had
my fair share of issues with both things. I know guys aren’t perfect and I will
openly admit that with anyone. Those who know me personally knows that I would
do anything for anyone just as long as real with me and try not to fuck me
over. With that said I have had enough of people abusing my kindness and have
been openly telling them just how it is. I have lost a lot of friends because
of that. But this blog isn’t about them this is about something that happened
at the beginning of April this year. To understand I will have to start towards
the beginning of March. I am not going to mention any names, because honestly
it’s not worth it. But I need to get this out to help better settle my mind. So
here it goes my story of a date I had earlier this year. A huge fucking mess……
January I almost died, I don’t recall the month of February,
and I left for a week at the end of February/beginning of March. I came back
feeling refreshed, and rested. About a week after I returned I started talking
with an old friend. We spent most days catching up and being random. I am not
sure how the subject came up or who brought it up, but the question on why we
never dated was brought up. This girl had a mindset like me. She didn’t give a
fuck what anyone thought, and was random in all the best ways. We enjoyed a lot
of the same stuff, and corny jokes. It was a very good question that neither of
us had an answer to.
We
started talking about getting together once our schedules lines up. We were
close and known a lot about each other, and have helped through some bad times.
A week or so before our date I had a pretty extreme attack and was having
troubles keeping it together. She was able to calm me down fast, Im talking
minutes of it all happening. This to me was absolutely amazing, because no one
has been able to in a long time and never that fast. So of course I wanted to
make sure things went the best. She was going through something with her ex and
needed a calm day. (side note if I ever see her ex in real life it will be the
last public appearance he ever makes.)
So
we finally had a day that was perfect. We had a plan of attack and nothing was
stopping us. The date ended up getting a late start due to her getting a late
start. I wasn’t worried because it was still going to happen just a few hours
later. I finally get the call, and I start heading her way. Finally something
was going right. Plans that I made with someone was actually happening. I
pulled up sporting a huge smile, and you could tell I was excited. I give her a
big hug (with the intention of not letting her go anytime soon) and then the
kiss. We both just planted a huge kiss on each other. Everything was going
great, we cuddled up watched a movie and just relaxed. Neither of us had to
pretend or try to impress one another. It was the first time for both of us
that we got to be ourselves. It was starting to turn into the big break I was
looking for. That was until the next day when things went south without any
notice or explanation.
So
morning arrived and we both woke up cuddled up next to one another. It was a
great night that seemed like we both needed. No pressures to impress, and no
worries. Nothing sexual happened except for the kissing. Sex was the furthest
thing from my mind. I mainly wanted to have a nice calm night where I didn’t have
to worry for the moment. That’s what it was and regardless of this next part I
am glad I was able to enjoy at least one nice night so far. So I was getting my
stuff gathered up to leave from the place straight to work. We both had a huge
smile on our faces. We kept hugging one another multiple times before I left. I
didn’t mind because these days I don’t get many hugs. I get to work a few
minutes after (it was close to the warehouse) and sent her a text thanking her
for a nice calm evening. She in returned thanked me for the same thing. I
suggested before she left to head to her dads she could swing by for one last
hug since she was heading that way anyway. She did and we talked about the next
time we see each other which would have been the next day. I agreed and then
she left for her dads. And now the bad part of this story.
Her
texts kept coming lighter and lighter until it stopped all together. Minutes
turned into hours, hours turned into days, days turned into weeks, and weeks
turned into months without any contact from her. She had stopped all communication
without any explanation. She knew very well she could have told me what was up.
There was no indications that it was anything I did because I was me, a perfect
gentlemen. People wonder why I get upset now when plans fuck up on me. It’s
because of shit like this. Not one bad thing happened and yet I still get
treated like this. So from me piecing things together it looks like she has
gotten back with her ex (the future dead guy) who beat the living shit out of
her until she looked worse than Caitlyn Jenner. It’s how the world works I
suppose. Most of you women over look guys like me and always go for the ones
that would harm you. I’m far from perfect, but you can lay money on the fact
that I would never lay my hand on a girl.
So
that’s that. The last date I had, and sadly the last time I went and did
something with someone. She kept her plans with me the first day, which is more
than I can say for most of you that made plans and then flaked out on me. Hell
I was going to meet up with one friend for lunch just to bullshit, and I’m
still waiting to her back to why she didn’t keep it 2 months later. I had
another close friend or so I thought make plans with me but it all went to shit
when she got together with her ex. These where just basic get togethers to
catch up and hang out again. But apparently this whole making plans and then
breaking them off or ignoring them is the new thing. I could understand if
something came up, but I would have at least like to know. Well Im not standing
for it. I don’t need these shitty people in my life. I need more positive and
these people just bring me down. I have lost a lot of friends this year due to
me standing up and putting my foot down. It is upsetting, and I pretty much
overwork myself so I am too tired to cry myself to sleep at night. Life isn’t perfect
and I have to deal with it in different ways so I don’t go full Kurt Cobain. I
am tired. So very tired. All I need is a good calm night every so often.
Apparently that too much to ask for.
So
there it is. This is pretty much the only status update (well not really an actual
update) you will be getting from me for a while. As always be on the lookout
for picture posts of everything but me.
-chris
